You pushed me into despair,
I deserved every bit.
You drove me to hysteria,
till a point I began to suffocate.
But yet now, I miss you dearly after these while.
I'm committing suicide you may say,
but this is Love in my own way.
Nothing can stop me from missing,
for that's what keeps my heart beating.
I apologise for my infidelity,
for that has punished me till eternity.
You won't forgive,
you won't forget.
I guess... This shall be the way you'll remember me.
But all I wanna say is:
Do not doubt my love boy,
I know you really cared.
Just that I took it for granted and went overboard,
causing so so much trouble and pain to you, me and them.
I'm such a sinner.
I repent daily, hoping that you would just talk to me.
A mere "Hello" would just do.
At least, that would lessen the pain in me.
But I guess, you wouldn't want to do so.
I'm really sorry, boy.
I'm seriously sorry.
I will repent till you forgive me.
Really sorry, I love you .
You're a razor, that leaves my heart to bleed.
Yet, I feel worth the pain.
♥ Clararararara
19.10.08